My heart pounds in my chest,
with just thoughts of this.
My head begins running off with these ideas,
these plans.
I'm empty.
I wish you could see that.
I'm so far from here.
I don't know how much longer until I collapse.
I'm sitting here rotting,
kicking at something dead.

save me. please.

My dreams are running wild,
the things that happen,
the places I go,
the situations I seem to get myself into.
I don't really know what my mind is trying to tell me.
What it is trying to show me.
But I dream of you every night.
Every fucking night,
you are there.

I don't say it like it is a bad thing,
because it isn't
I just don't understand it.
I don't know what a means.
It frustrates me.
It is beginning to drive me crazy.
But these days every little thing is starting to drive me crazy.

...

"I'm just stuck here, it has hit me.
I honestly think I'm just destined to be alone.
I'm setting myself up for isolation.
Taking one big breath and I will be gone.
Detached from this society, off in my head.
The things I think, I cant share them anyway.
My conversations with people are so meaningless.
Everyone around me seems gloomy, while I just sit there empty.
I shall fill my life with books and blank pages.
The sadness I shall conquer will be worth it."

I'm okey

this low

is getting lower.
I wonder when Ill hit the lowest.















IguessI'llFindout

You have your highs
and
you have your lows.

I'm stuck in a low.